Hurting.

We are officially broken up.
He went through my phone and found out that I thought he was using me for sex.
I feel like I could die.





I haven't eaten much today. I just don't have an appetite.
I want to go to the gym but I don't have the energy.
I kind of just want to sleep...
but I have a Sociology test to study for.






He's bringing over my dress soon.
I feel sick about it.

Fuck.

I don't believe my scale.
I don't believe my scale
I don't believe my scale.


This stupid fucking week of having my period has RUINED ALL OF MY FUCKING PROGRESS.


That is fucking IT.
Water fast for two weeks.

Starting NOW.

Quick Post of Lovely Things.

I'm hungry as hell, so I'm posting to avoid walking downstairs and binging.










I am feeling incredibly needy today. I just want to be hugged and snuggled and loved on, but at the same time, I don't want to be touched. And I'm trying to protect myself because my shut off boyfriend is so...unpredictable. This feels really lonely.








To distract myself further, I'm going to do some studying. I'm determined to get an A on my next test.

I hate myself today.

Maybe I'll straighten my hair and put on ridiculous amounts of make-up.
Or maybe I'll just go to sleep.


More later.